Not Enough

I need to make more time for music. It might seem like I'm doing a lot of it, that I spend hours rehearsing and practicing, but I don't focus on it enough, enjoy it enough. I do love playing trumpet, as much as I bitch about it. And I can't wait to start piano lessons again! Music history too! I am still debating about whether to take Topics or Jazz History, but I don't need to decide for awhile. It might look bad to have the same class 3-4 times on my transcript, but i do get repeat credit, and I would LOVE to take a class with George. I want to relax and lie on the floor and listen to Wagner and Mahler and not worry! I worry to much, and not about the right things. No good.


Another interesting idea: How do you reconcile the artist and the music? I mean, if the artist was a bad person and you know that, but you love their music, do you ever feel guilty? Like that their personality some how poisons it, makes it worse? Or should you just judge purely on the sound? Clearly I am talking about Wagner here. On the contrary, can a beautiful soul make music better?
hmmmm